Carts, plates, and balls.
June 27, 2012 § 6 Comments
Ever had too many balls in the air?
[I’ve always kinda hated that phrase, because apparently sometimes I can think like a middle school boy, but there it is.]
Too many plates spinning?
The proverbial cart before the horse when adding another thing to your list?
As it turns out, for those of you who don’t know, calling yourself a “writer” brings with it endless possibilities. And that is a blessing and a curse. When I went at this full-time last fall, I jumped into a lot of things, not knowing what would stick. Devotionals, articles, newsletters, websites, a book, and this blog all asked for a dipping of my toe to see if the water was fine.
I didn’t really know where to start, so I started it all. By my count, that is at least six different paths my writing was taking.
I think there’s a saying out there having to do with the more you’re doing, the less likely it is that you are doing any of it 100%. Have I been doing any of these things 100%? No. But I don’t know how to stop.
What if today I’m inspired to write a devotional for women when I’m supposed to be writing about the latest Eagle Scout? That moment was perfect to share on my blog (with, of course, a retro-ish picture included), but I was on my way to writing an article about how to become a medical assistant.
It’s dizzying. And I am doing none of it well. Because the entire time I am trying to “focus” on something, there is a part of my brain that is taking inventory of other topics and things I could be writing about and lightly tapping on my shoulder, asking “Now? How about now? What about now? Look over here! You could be writing about this.”
In fact, because I am nothing if not honest here, all of this ruminating applies to right now. Should I be writing this post? No. I should be writing about how to work and go to school at the same time and actually get paid. But here I am, following the shoulder tapping and writing this instead. But is that bad? I want to write here, too, and don’t like to without inspiration. And right now I’m inspired.
And so the vicious cycle punches me in the face again.
Oh, I have had a “schedule.” I have even timed myself for how long it should take to work on something so that I have to focus before the shrill and dreaded BEEP. But to no avail. I just don’t know. So, I have no answers. Only this quandry. I’ve never been that awesome at organizing my time and my mind, so here I sit. Just sharing. But that’s what a blog is, yes?
Any suggestions? Thoughts? Stiff drink recommendations?